Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Sick Baby

Thursday afternoon my cute little boy started acting grumpy, so I laid him down for a nap. When he woke up poor boy had a fever after a little dinner and some medicine he was ready for bed again. Friday morning he still had a fever and was even hotter he didn't want anything to eat, but had a little bit of milk, more medicine and back to bed. I got him up to get the kids from school, making it 11 hours of sleep over night one hour awake then four more hours of sleep. He wouldn't eat lunch, but again had some milk. I didn't think much of it, it's more important to keep him hydrated while sick. Another dose of fever reducer and it was back to bed, he woke up when the fever was back up to 102.1 had some juice, of course more meds and a cuddle. Saturday wasn't quite the same story, he was too uncomfortable to sleep. Thank you sister for stopping by on your way home so I could run to the store for milk and more medicine when we ran out. Saturday was hard for me his fever got as high as 103.7 he wasn't eating and didn't even drink 8 oz of anything. He started a horrible sounding cough and got all stuffed up and snotty. Jared is out on the road so I've got no one home with me helping me to know what to do. I called my mom and weather she knew it or not, she calmed me down. My mom would come over in the morning if he was still as bad. He had a long night and woke up a few times. He was a little better on Sunday just in the fact the his fever didn't go back up as high, although it was still in the 102 area. With the fever down some I decided to wait to take him to the doctor in the morning. James spent the night in my bed, he would only sleep while cuddling with me, that was a long night. Just what everyone wants to be doing first thing Monday mornign after a long weekend, I was headed to the pediatrician's office. After all the standard stuff they put a pulse oxygen monitor on his little foot, he wasn't getting enough oxygen. We first tried a Albuterol treatment, all that did was make James cry for 10 minutes. We then went over to Primary Children's Hospital. They hooked him up to oxygen and monitors. Then they did a swab for respiratory viruses, which came back positive for RSV. There aren't any meds for RSV, just keep getting him enough oxygen, keep his fever down, and make sure he stays hydrated. First one done, second, done, third nope he wont drink much of anything yet. Poor baby had to get an IV to rehydrate him. Monday night he's in his hospital crib, which now I wish I'd taken a picture of it looked more like a cage then a crib. But after he wrapped his wires and cords around his neck, we changed out the bed and I cuddled with him all night. An even longer night then Sunday night, now I'm sharing a smaller bed with a one year old and we have nurses coming in ever 2 hours to take vitals and temp. At one point around 4am I think they had to suction out his little nose. What that is putting a small tube up his nose down to tickle his throat and suck out all the mucus. Shocker, he didn't like that. But after they were down he could breath a lot better. Some time after that his fever actually broke. By noon on Tuesday he was off the oxygen, and the fluids were turned off to see how well he would keep him self hydrated. Enough that they let me take him home Tuesday evening. I set up the playpen in my room and he sleep fine for a few hours but needed some cuddles around 2am. He's eating small amounts today, has energy back, coughing (which sounds really bad, but is a good thing) and snotting everywhere (gross, but again it's good). I'm so blessed, that I have family who keep me feed and took care of my other two kids, I'm able to take him to a doctor and hospital who can get him back to healthy, a close one at that, he is doing well. RSV can get really bad, lead to other health problems, and in some cases death, James had an easy case of RSV. I'm very grateful for the ways my kids and I were blessed through this illness. A note on daddy, like I said he is on the road with work, we called him several times. The hardest part of it for him was that he couldn't be there with us. He wanted to be able to hug me when I needed one, hold his son and comfort him. There wasn't much that I could do to help, but Jared hurt knowing there was nothing
he could do. It's okay, Jared/daddy, we know why you could be there and we love you for the sacrifices you are making to take care of your family.

The pictures are the day James was born October 2010, Christmas 2011, and the day he was blessed May 2011

Friday, April 13, 2012

10 years

Ten years ago today my parents agonized my decision as they watched me get married. I know my parents love me and they were just worried that I was making a huge mistake, caught up in the youthful fantasies of what marriage is. But I was in love and just so sure that everything would be great. Ten years later I think we were both right.
I didn't understand what they were so worried about, how could I. Young, in love, never lived on my own, and never been married, there was no way for me to see all they could and understand all their worry (they just didn't like Jared, wanted to keep me a kid, and they were too happy with me at the time either. Well that's what I thought) It has been hard at times, super fun at times, and so worth it. There was more then once in the first three years I think our stubbornness of not wanting "everyone else" to be right was the only thing that keep us fighting to make it good again and I'm so glad we have. We have had more good times then bad. Hard times that I'm glad Jared was right there for me during.
I love my husband and am so happy to have him. He as always done so much to take care of me. He sometimes, too often, feels bad that he can't give me more, but he has giving me the two best things he could ever give; his love and our amazing kids. I would change things in my life but he isn't one of them. True we could have done things better, but what's the point of wonder how things would be if we done it another way. Things are good.
I can't put into words how glad I am that on April 13 2002 Jared and I got married and haven't let anything push us apart in the last ten years. I'm so excited to see what the next ten years will bring us. And I'm sure my parents are looking forward to seeing how I do with having teen aged kids, which will come in the next ten years.